"I didn’t want it to end up like this," she cried into the phone. "I'm so alone. Life is not worth living."
Suffering from a mental illness, her life had become too complicated. Nothing made sense. How could there be purpose if this is all there is? If this is the way it ends?
I wonder if any of you have ever had those identical feelings of doubt and confusion. The roadblocks we talked about earlier often give rise to mental uncertainty. From the human perspective, bleakness hovers.
In Mark 15: 16-25 we read about what the disciples experienced during Jesus' last day before he died. Their friend, mentor and guide was tried in a Roman court and crucified. All potential hope of a better life buried with the saviour. Or so they thought.
Did they think right?
Try to imagine some of the thoughts that might have gone through the disciples minds?
Did they anticipate life taking this sharp turn? How would you feel if you had been there?
All the confusion that clouded their thinking did not make sense. But again, when bleakness hovers, where is God? In God's big picture, what happened on the day Christ hung on the cross?
Think of a time in your life when you could not understand (maybe right now) what good could possibly come from all the confusion in your life. Have you been able to look back and discover God at work?
Consider this when you face life's confusing times:
"God's silence is in no way indicative of His inactivity or involvement in our lives. He may be silent but He is not still." ~ Dr. Charles Stanley
I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Ruth
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I've been asking this question for quite some time now. I've been searching for solutions, for guidance, but it feels like every word of wisdom has already been said and still has accomplished nothing for me. I have a lot to be grateful for, and at the same time, I'm yearning for a mate. I've been waiting for years for God to bring someone into my life. I've tried MANY options, and I've tried to strengthen my relationship with God, but I still have so much trouble keeping hope. I'm not by any means old, but I feel like my clock is ticking. I just want a loving husband and the chance to have a family, but it feels like this will never be granted. I watch countless friends and relatives fall in love, get married, and have kids, and I feel even worse.
What do you do when your trial seems to last for an exceptionally long time, and it's so very difficult to hang onto hope? I know that God has a plan for everyone, but I just feel lost. I know in my heart that I do not want or desire to be single for the rest of my life. It feels like every resource has been exhausted - I've put myself out there with no success. I've tried trusting God to find someone for me, but then I have doubts about what my role should be? Should I wait for someone to come into my life? I just don't know anymore.
I can't seem to break out of this worry and fear. I wait for God but nothing ever seems to happen.
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